Take that Leap of Faith
You all know how college has been this year. At first I wasn't too into it, but now I really love it! Well, now I love it even more because I finally decided on a major. I was previously majoring in Math with a concentration in secondary education. For practically my entire life I wanted to be a teacher. I interned in high school for two years as a teacher's aid and I just always grew up loving to help others, kids especially. Throughout high school I fell in love with math. I found everything about it really fascinating. As a senior in high school, I applied to for a teaching scholarship for a math. The prize was a guaranteed teaching job right out of college as well as a $5000.00 signing bonus -- I mean you can't get any better than that.
As college came, I was excited to dive into math but in the back of my mind I always knew I would struggle. I knew I could do it but I knew it was going to take a lot. I was always the student in high school who went to a tutor outside of school to help me grasp the material a little better. Well, in college they don't necessarily have that. You can to somewhere to ask for help but the tutors aren't supposed to teach you the material like a traditional tutor does. As I went further and further into my major I realized although I love math and analytics and everything like that, I slowly became away to me that math wasn't something that I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I then had to ask myself, "what exactly do you want to do with your life?". And let me tell you, that's not particularly an easy question to answer.
As I thought about it, I realized that I wanted to be apart of the business world. I didn't want to be stuck in a textbook and teaching the same lectures for years to come. I wanted to be on business meetings, lead teams, live in a big city, and travel for work. I want to see the world, I want to continue Daily Dose of Prep, and I want to be a force to be reckoned with. In some aspects, teaching could bring me those things and in others, my dreams weren't really fitting into my current path. So I started researching.
At first, I though the business school was my path. I wanted to major in marketing and that would be that. After more research and a few talks with my sister, Leslie, a few friends, and my Dad (Mr. Business Man) it was clear that if I wanted to apply to the college of business I would be 3 semesters behind and an additional $15,000 in debt. That was not an option. I need another route...I needed to find something I was passionate about and something that I was going to stick with. I wanted something I could see myself doing and something that I can see myself enjoying. After more talks with my sister, Dad, and friends I decided that communication/media studies would be a good fit for me. I then needed to figure out what it was that I wanted to do with that major. I was still contemplating so I went further into the major and saw that there are a handful of concentrations and minors within the field. Public Relations immediately stuck out to me.
Public Relations is when someone creates a favorable image of a company, brand, or person to convey to the public. I mean, HELLO! I do that already for not only myself but also for the dozens of companies that I have represented on Daily Dose of Prep! There isn't a major more fit for me. To top it all off, I already have completed a few courses on the major and am right on track for graduation. I don't have to stay an extra semester, take May-mesters (summer classes), class at community college, or a J-Term (January class) to catch up. I am right on track.
I was honestly freaking out a little bit last week during enrollment. I had literally no plan and no clue of what I wanted to do. I was very lost and had to just start somewhere which can be really hard to do when you don't know where to push off from. I stopped in the middle of a panic attack and closed my laptop, closed my eyes, folded my hands and prayed. I asked God to please just show me a path; to show me a way of where to go. It didn't have to be business or math or teaching, it could be something totally random, but I just needed His help to show me a way to go. Like always, the Lord showed me where to go and what to do. He presented me with a "plan c", something totally and completely unexpected but something so absolutely perfect.
The security of a guaranteed job after college along with a few thousand dollars to get me started was so nice. I mean I was set for practically life with an offer like that. In a world where math teachers, especially female math teachers was so demanding I was golden. I struggled with being able to let go of the comfort of that but being able to take this leap of faith into something to new and unexpected is exciting. I can't wait to get the ball rolling next semester with my new major and start walking down my new path. I finally feel like things are as they should be in college. I have a great group of friends, I am a part of a fantastic organization of girls, and I now am heading towards a great future studying a fascinating major. I have high hopes for this new installment of college. I can't wait to see where it takes me.